What a difference

a quiet weekend and a hot bubblebath makes. I feel so much better. I slept for 12 hours last night and have just been taking it easy. I did spot a little last night. I don't know what is going on with that but it has stopped. Never in my life have I had a late period and now all of the sudden my cycles are whacked. My mom says it's a case of the boiling pot. You know "a watched pot never boils". I think she may be right. The stress of the past month has gotten to me. Normally I am able to shrug off anything but TTC is another story. Well, here's to a great week. I will keep you all posted on my test results.

Peace at last

I had my interview with ND yesterday morning. It went very well and I will know by this Tues. if I got a 2nd interview. I am really hoping I got the job, but I have made peace with the fact that I may need to stay with my current company for a while. I went to the farmers market this morning with Mom. We had so much fun and found some great bargins. I really needed to get out for a while. All the stress over job, money, and TTC have taken a toll on my nerves.
On the TTC front my progesterone and TSH tests are this Tues. I am slightly nervous about the results but once we know then we can do something about it. I keep having dreams that I get my BFP in Jan with the first IUI. I know that it is always a 20% chance of BFP but I will aways stay positive. I believe Tammy and Marlana when they say that I will be a mommy.

Frustrated

So I call my new sperm bank yesterday to see if my papers got there ok and order the long profiles on my top choices.Well, they lost them!! I have to fill them out again and pay my Dr. 15$ to sign them and start all over. Add to the fact that work is crappy and my interview at ND is on Friday. Mom is having some minor outpaitent surgery next week and my paycheck is gone before I get it this Fri. AHHHH! Ok, now that I got that out of my system LOL!!

Finally good news

I was called for an interview at Notre Dame.YAYYY!!! I am so ready for a job that I don't hate going to everyday. I started out loving my current job and it does pay well. However, the stress, scheduling and people make it an unpleasant place to spend my days. I have been sending my resume to ND for a few months. I pray that the interview goes well and I can turn in my resignation by the end of the this month. I miss being around open minded people that don't immediatly turn their nose up at differences.
I think that a change of jobs will help in the TTC process as the stress is a major concern as well as scheduling. My current job is very strict about attendance and does not allow make up time. If you miss work you have to use vacation time and you are given "points" that count against you. Everything is by the book. No special circumstances allowed. I remember when I first started working there one of the ladies baby died of SIDS. Awful and heartbreaking enough but they made her bring in a death certificate before they would let her take time off. Despicable.
Well, enough ranting about that.
Heres to a great week to all!!! Babydust to all my ladies in the TTC journey!!

Trying not to let worry creep in

I keep thinking about the test results and I can't help but worry. According to my chart I did not ovulate last cycle and I only had a couple of days of light bleeding. I know the annovulatory cycles are ok once in a while. It is my worst nightmare to be infertile and never have a child of my own. I know that is not likely but when something unexpected happens I think it is human nature that we try to prepare ourselves for the worst. Thank you to all who support me and give me the words of encouragement that I need. And that means you Tammy!! I am sending you lots of babydust!!

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Happy Haloween

I love this day. It is so much fun to watch to kids go around the neighborhood all dressed up. This is such an inocent time for them. It makes me think of my own child trick or treating someday. I have to keep in mind that it will happen soon. I go in next week for my progesterone testing again. I am nervous and keep awfulizing in my head that something terrible will happen. I know that this will be difficult but not impossible.

Time lapse explained

Wow does time fly. I am now posting again after looong summer break. Let me catch you up to speed. First AI in July BFN, probably an early miscarriage as I did get a faint positive before that bitch AF showed up. 2nd AI in early Sept. also a BFN. Then as a looked at my charts I realized my luteal phase is only 9 days. So off to the Dr. I go. Turns out my progesterone is quite low. My wonderful OB tells me that it is fixable and I then I proceed to feel better and get my hopes up again. Then after a 43 day cycle my ob orders more labs and finds my LH and FSH are low. Not horrible but not optimal either. So here is the plan, will start AI again in January. In the meantime I am to lose 20 lbs, start progesterone therapy and get ready for Dr. assisted IUI. with clomid and trigger shots. Whew!!
Since my last post in June I have a new niece Anika Michele who is gorgeaus and perfect. My brother and sis-in-law know about my attempts to get prego and are on board 100% (whood a thunk it!!) and I have changed sperm banks. I am now using Midwest Sperm Bank which is so close I can pick up my tank and not have to pay shipping or have it shipped and pay only 50$. I love all my ladies in the NW board and still check in while trying like hell to avoid the bloody drama going on.
I just to sum it all up. I am disappointed that this won't be as easy as I thought, relieved that my family is supportive and now know more about my cycles that I ever really wanted to. On the up side I am now holding lunchtime TTC educationals at work for a couple of ladies who are TTC and don't know the first thing about charting!! LOL!!