This is my place to share my journey to becoming a mother and anything else that is going on in my life. Welcome!!

ABOUT ME

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Age 33. Single, Native American hot chick (hence the blog title). I am a left wing, liberal, treehugging Democrat. I have made the choice to become a single mother and am doing so as a foster parent. I will go head on to put the most at risk children first. This is my place to share my journey. I hold nothing back, whether it be joy or heartbreak.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

waiting is hell

yes it is. I am still waiting for a child. I have told my case manager that I want only one child this time and preferably one who is a newborn with limited parental contact (adoption potential). I know this sounds heartless, but the pain of giving up the children was heartwrenching.
Work is going well, very busy and I still have the overzealous supervisior from hell. Well that's pretty much it. I wish everyone well and you are in my prayers Tammy and Mark.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

and now....

the wait begins again. I took the children home to their mother, who by the way is trying very hard to turn her life around. It hurt more than I expected. It kind of felt like the miscarriages. I am now in wait for a newborn to adopt from the foster care system.
There are a few things I have learned from this experience.
1. the foster care system SUCKS. They put foster parents and kids through hell.
2. they take forever to pay you. I had the kids for six weeks and still have not been paid yet.
3. Parenting is hard, nuff said

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

WEEEELLL.....

I now have 3 children. C is age 5, X is age 3 and L is 2. My life have been turned upside down and any thought of painting my toenails or brushing my hair has vanished. I love these kids and they are a challenge to say the least. They have parental visits, dr. visits, dentist visits and visits to the moon. If I didn't have my mom or Donovan I would be screwed. I have taken alot of family time off of work so now my wallet is uber empty. Buuuttt I wouldn't have it any other way. I am a mommy at last.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Good times.....

Well, I am officially a licesnsed foster parent. I am in waiting for a child and am sitting very close to my phone 24-7. I will be taking newborn to 4 years old and it could happen at any time. And I mean ANY time. My arms are empty and ready to hold that baby. I haven't really thought about TTC for a while but I am not willing to give up on that.
Things are going quite well for now. I am physically doing better, although I hernated another disc in my back. I am prone to disc issues because of a previous back injury. I deal with the pain fairly well, but being pregnant will put alot of stress on my back.
I want to take the time to congratulate those who have their babies by adoption or birth. I am so happy for all of you.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Long time no post

wow that was a looong break from posting. Here's an update in particular order
1) Foster Parenting- still waiting on the homestudy, paperwork is done and classes are complete. The nursery is done and the most gorgeous shades of yellow and green ever! I am getting exited and so ready to be a mom. I also did some renovations on the rest of the house and now am scrutinizing EVERYTHING. I should be a foster mom by my B-day in July.
2) Health- I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. It hurts all the damn time every damn where but I am taking good medication and am learning to deal with things and take care of myself first. It probably stems from my back injury a few years ago but there is no way of knowing. The bad things is the meds (lyrica) have made me gain weight so I am fighting that off as well.
3) TTC- I will be starting up again in August for sure, I need time to adjust to fostering and get my body strong again.
Let me just congratulate all the folks who are seeing their dreams come true and getting their postive EPT's and babies. For the rest of us, let's just keep trying......together.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

quick update

Just a quick update-Foster parent classes are going great, I am really learning alot and feel that I am just about as ready as I will ever be to take this on. I am getting the house and nursery ready for the homestudy.
Work is going ok. We are getting busy and stay busy on most days. I do feel like morale is pretty low and I try not to let it affect me but it does when the shit gets deep.
Physically, my back is getting worse again and it is causing a domino effect throughout my body. I have gained quite a bit of weight due to medication and lack of physical activity (from weather and back pain). I am doing everything I can to remedy this and hope to be in good condition to TTC by my b-day in July. That's all folks!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Thanks!!

I appreciate everyone who left a comments on the previous post. I love having a "crew" behind me.
As an update, things are going well. I had my first foster parenting class this past Sat. and it was wonderful. I really feel like things are going forward. Finally. I should be TTC by May if all goes well. But we all know very well the roadblocks that can crop up at any given moment.
My kitty Julia Child had her spay surgery yesterday. She is doing very well so far and is back to her bitchy self. No unlike her mommy at all:)