Two more babies!!

I have two more little ones, 23 mos and 3 yrs. They have seen alot and are VERY busy little ones. This will mark their 4th placement in foster care. They do have visits with their mother. I think with a little time and putting them on a decen schedule, they should be fine. I was told this would be longer term, so here goes!!

still a foster parent

I am still fostering and have had two more placements since my last post. I am still waiting for that adoption match and am coming to terms with my fertility issues. I am still hopeful that someday I will get pregnant and have a baby of my own.
I am so busy with fostering and work that I don't blog very much or get to visit my favorite people (hey Tammy!) but I am still around!

One more time....

3 more children, J is 7mos a beautiful baby girl, M is 2 looks like an American girl doll and A is 8 yrs such a gentleman. This is a short term, emergency placement and my heart goes out to these kids. Apparently they were taken from the home due to "unfit living conditions". The case investigator could not even make it past the front door without gagging from the stench. Little M was eating dogfood and mom was letting her because she didn't have time to feed her real food. Yet, sadly, these children are expected to go back very soon. I can't have children naturally but these cockroaches can have as many as they want and treat them like garbage. what up God?

waiting is hell

yes it is. I am still waiting for a child. I have told my case manager that I want only one child this time and preferably one who is a newborn with limited parental contact (adoption potential). I know this sounds heartless, but the pain of giving up the children was heartwrenching.
Work is going well, very busy and I still have the overzealous supervisior from hell. Well that's pretty much it. I wish everyone well and you are in my prayers Tammy and Mark.

and now....

the wait begins again. I took the children home to their mother, who by the way is trying very hard to turn her life around. It hurt more than I expected. It kind of felt like the miscarriages. I am now in wait for a newborn to adopt from the foster care system.
There are a few things I have learned from this experience.
1. the foster care system SUCKS. They put foster parents and kids through hell.
2. they take forever to pay you. I had the kids for six weeks and still have not been paid yet.
3. Parenting is hard, nuff said

WEEEELLL.....

I now have 3 children. C is age 5, X is age 3 and L is 2. My life have been turned upside down and any thought of painting my toenails or brushing my hair has vanished. I love these kids and they are a challenge to say the least. They have parental visits, dr. visits, dentist visits and visits to the moon. If I didn't have my mom or Donovan I would be screwed. I have taken alot of family time off of work so now my wallet is uber empty. Buuuttt I wouldn't have it any other way. I am a mommy at last.

Good times.....

Well, I am officially a licesnsed foster parent. I am in waiting for a child and am sitting very close to my phone 24-7. I will be taking newborn to 4 years old and it could happen at any time. And I mean ANY time. My arms are empty and ready to hold that baby. I haven't really thought about TTC for a while but I am not willing to give up on that.
Things are going quite well for now. I am physically doing better, although I hernated another disc in my back. I am prone to disc issues because of a previous back injury. I deal with the pain fairly well, but being pregnant will put alot of stress on my back.
I want to take the time to congratulate those who have their babies by adoption or birth. I am so happy for all of you.