All That

This is my place to share my journey to becoming a mother and anything else that is going on in my life. Welcome!!


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Age 33. Single, Native American hot chick (hence the blog title). I am a left wing, liberal, treehugging Democrat. I have made the choice to become a single mother and am doing so as a foster parent. I will go head on to put the most at risk children first. This is my place to share my journey. I hold nothing back, whether it be joy or heartbreak.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Again and again

So.............the boys went home. What a total clusterf#4k. This whole placement was nothing but crap the whole time. The casemanager was so bad at communicating that we didn't even know about a 48 hour visit until we were two hours late getting them there. Then when the boys came back, they smelled like pot smoke and I who is 3 yrs. old was acting out oral sex in the bathtub and touching J who is 2 yrs. old inappropriately. I reported this to the casemanager and she all but ignored it. So, I went to her boss who suspended the visits to investigate. After all this, the judge still ordered the children to go home, they have been in foster care for over two years. When we went to the outside agency to do the transfer, the rude facilitator said to my mother and I, "you can go now". I was summarily dismissed without so much as a thank you. And now I have to go to DCS Monday to talk to the family casemanager and her sup and my licensing manger about what went wrong.
Yup, I am now in waiting for more children. Nothing will stop me from putting the children first.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

and again

3 month old and 2 yrd old when to their aunt's. Now I have 2 and 4 yrd old boys. This makes 18 children so far. And I thought I would never have children!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


3mos old and 2 yrs!! Very busy-very tired!!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Surgery and healing

I had another back surgery on Dec. 4th and am now healing quite well after some complication and nerve damage.
I have gotten a call about three children who need placement. 1 month old-2 and 4yrs old. I am now just waiting on the call to see when they will be brought to me.
Work is going well and all is calm and peaceful. Praise God for allowing me to serve children in need.
I will be trying to get PG again but don't know when. I am willing wait for the right time.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Two more babies!!

I have two more little ones, 23 mos and 3 yrs. They have seen alot and are VERY busy little ones. This will mark their 4th placement in foster care. They do have visits with their mother. I think with a little time and putting them on a decen schedule, they should be fine. I was told this would be longer term, so here goes!!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

still a foster parent

I am still fostering and have had two more placements since my last post. I am still waiting for that adoption match and am coming to terms with my fertility issues. I am still hopeful that someday I will get pregnant and have a baby of my own.
I am so busy with fostering and work that I don't blog very much or get to visit my favorite people (hey Tammy!) but I am still around!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

One more time....

3 more children, J is 7mos a beautiful baby girl, M is 2 looks like an American girl doll and A is 8 yrs such a gentleman. This is a short term, emergency placement and my heart goes out to these kids. Apparently they were taken from the home due to "unfit living conditions". The case investigator could not even make it past the front door without gagging from the stench. Little M was eating dogfood and mom was letting her because she didn't have time to feed her real food. Yet, sadly, these children are expected to go back very soon. I can't have children naturally but these cockroaches can have as many as they want and treat them like garbage. what up God?