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Age 33. Single, Native American hot chick (hence the blog title). I am a left wing, liberal, treehugging Democrat. I have made the choice to become a single mother and am doing so as a foster parent. I will go head on to put the most at risk children first. This is my place to share my journey. I hold nothing back, whether it be joy or heartbreak.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Feeling better

I am now feeling a little better and able to get back to life. The disappointment was so hard to take this time and I feel like it gets worse every BFN. I will TTC again in October so it's not that long until that happens. I was able to spend the day with Anika yesterday so that helped tremendously to take my mind off of things. For now, I will concentrate on the here and now and try not to worry too much about those things I have no control over.

Friday, August 15, 2008


that's all for today

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

The wait is the hardest part

Still nothing much to report. I have some weird crampy, full sensations in my uterus and have not been able to get enough food. I also am very tired but that is nothing new. I will test this Friday morning so CD12 as waiting until sunday is just too much to bear. I have just been praying my heart out that this worked as I will have to wait a few months to try again.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Not much to report

Still waiting to test. Today is CD8 and I am feeling very fatigued and my moods go from laughing my ass off at pretty much nothing to crying at everything. That could be just from the stress of the TWW. I am still working the 2nd job which is just a couple of hours in the evening during the week, which is keeping me distracted. My first test day is this Friday so I have the rest of this week to wonder what's really going on in my uterus. I will keep blogging as much as I can this week, just to keep sane if at all possible.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Here's the dish

So I showed my midwife the first pos opk and she said it just wasn't dark enough, which it really wasnt't. So I tested again on Sat and it really was pos, no doubt. So, Sunday morning the IUI was done. It really wasn't painful and I was in my own bed. It took a total of 15 min. and having my Mom there really helped. It was the most perfect timing. So now here I am in the TWW again, 2dpo. I am trying not to think too far ahead but I am staying positive.
I am really tired right now as my Godmother, who had colon cancer for years, went with God this past Friday afternoon. I mourned but she asked us not to do so for very long as her suffering is now over. Peggy Marlene Schultz is now with her beloved.

Friday, August 1, 2008 I come!!!

Here I am at 1:58p on Friday at work. I am bored and anxious, so ready to go home. You know typical Friday attitude. What is different about today? My IUI is tomorrow!!!! I got my pos opk this morning (cd15) and will do the IUI tomorrow afternoon. Talk about ready, I almost did it today just to get it over with. Good thing my midwife/medicine woman is a rational person and talked me into waiting until the normal time frame. She will be coming over in the afternoon to do the deed and make sure I stay put for at least an hour. My Mom will be there along with Rosa so I will have my wise women by my side, which is a Native American tradition during childbirth.
So, here we go baby!!!!